OMFG.

All right. Things have been looking up! I've been a lot happier lately. I don't know what it is. Maybe it's because I haven't been doing dreadfully horrible in Biology like I thought I was, and that's good. I've got the runs (lol lol) in District Chorus, and I'm pretty confident in my chance of going. Not only that, but I hung out with Loren over the weekend, Avatar FINALLY premiered, and Loren and I have a rockin' story idea that cannot fail!

Am I excited? Hell yes I am!

Not only that, but in TWO WEEKS Loren and I will be sitting second row together at Phantom of the opera. Tomorrow I get to go get new glasses (Yay!) and a dress for PotO. I'm stressing about things a lot less, focusing on my work more than my computer (which is a MAJOR change), and confident in my ability to do well.

All in all, I am content with my life right now. I've got everything under control. I have an appointment with my Guidence councilor next week to discuss classes and colleges and various things of that nature, and I'm actually doing well in math for once in my life.

The only thing I'm disappointed about is that I haven't had a crunch wrap in a while.

I want a crunch wrap. </3

So, that's all I got! 

I swear. Today has to be the worst day I've gone through. Ever. I've never felt this low before.

All right, let's start from the beginning. This summer has sucked money butt because I only got to hang out with Loren, like, twice. Now, she's got volleyball 24/7 and I never see her because we don't have any classes together. If we do see each other in the hall, it's a "Hi Kelsey!" and "Hi, Loren!" I swear, I see her boyfriend more than I see her, which is kind of upsetting. And, when we talk on the phone, I sometimes think she doesn't see me as her best friend anymore just because of our little awkward pauses and stuff... but then, she goes ahead and tells me really nice things, and I know she's the greatest friend I could ever ask for. (Loren, if you're reading this, I'm sorry I've ever doubted you. I certainly don't anymore, I just miss you so much. <///3)

Secondly, I'm trying out for District Chorus this year. I'll be auditioning on Alto II. There's only one Alto II from our school going, and since you can only take two girls per voice part, I have a pretty good shot at getting into Districts, if I do well in my audition, of course. The problem is, the other girl, Amy... I think she doesn't want me to go as the other Alto II. I mean, whenever I make a little mistake, she always glances at me or shakes her head like I'm pathetic or something. I makes me feel really low. If I'm doing something wrong, I'd really like her to help me because she's an excellent alto, but she just shoots me looks and stuff. It's degrading. Not to mention that she told Jake I was Flat during practice. I don't even know what being flat is! So, that just made me feel like a real loser, so I barely sang at practice today.

My love life is pathetically non-existant. I really wish my knight in shining aluminum foil would come and I could find him and I could finally be happy. I mean, I've got so many great friends who are always there for me, but I really, really want a romantic relationship. I never thought I needed a guy to complete me before, but now it feels like a part of my heart is missing, and it hurts a lot. Really, it does. I've been single for more than two years, after I broke up with this really great guy, Jimmy, which I seriously regret. I just want to crawl under a rock or into a hole and never come out.

Siiiigh... I'm just really stressed. I really love hugs. Bryce gives me hugs everyday, and so does Jake. Mary sometimes gives me hugs, but she's more of a make me smile and laugh kind of person, which I really like, too. I just like hugs more.

I feel like a piece of dirt right now. That's all.